Days after separation, Kusha Kapila pens emotional note: ‘It’s a weird thing, this grief or whatever’

She said that the grief doesn't seem as daunting as the thought of its possible permanence.

Captioning the note, Kusha wrote, "Let's file this under 'Sunday evenings are the worst." (Source: Kusha Kapila/Instagram)

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Social media star and actor Kusha Kapila, who is known for her humorous content and candid nature is facing a difficult time in her life. Days after Kusha announced her separation from Zorawar Ahluwalia, she took to Instagram to pen a long note on how the grief of separation refuses to fade.

Kusha described how her grief has a peculiar nature, reflecting on her emotions. “It’s a weird thing, this grief or whatever version of it I am currently experiencing. As overcome I am by its heaviness – I guess chest days feel like this – I am also strangely dwarfed by it, to the point of feeling like an injured nail on a pinky toe,” she wrote.

Captioning the note, Kusha wrote, “Let’s file this under ‘Sunday evenings are the worst.” (Source: Kusha Kapila/Instagram)

To capture the gravity of her emotions, she used the analogy of a “big bang in motion, only it’s on a microscope slide”.

She added that the grief doesn’t seem as daunting as the thought of its possible permanence. “Are we exclusive? Is this a forever thing? Will we grow to like each other or will we co-exist like cordial roommates till our rent agreement expires. No renewal for me, please.”

Kusha further penned that she genuinely believes the grief has “irreversibly changed the way I look, eat, talk exist.” She acknowledged clinging to her favourite songs and avoiding anything new due to her need for familiarity — a feeling she described as almost paralysing.

“Yours truly thought she had evaded most stages (of grief), maybe even grief altogether (obviously, stage one, denial). And then it hits you, like a big bang but on a microscopic slide. You watch all of it happen. After all, you are behind the lens. It’s your eye on it,” she concluded.

Many celebrities came out in support of Kusha and commented on her post. (Source: Kusha Kapila/Instagram)

Captioning the note, Kusha wrote, “Let’s file this under “Sunday evenings are the worst”.

Many celebrities came out in support of Kusha and commented on her post. Her Masaba Masaba co-star and fashion designer, Masaba Gupta, wrote, “It gets better K. It really does. Been there done that.” Masaba too had a divorce from film producer Madhu Mantetena in 2019. Earlier this year, she married actor Satyadeep Mishra.

Actor Pulkit Samrat also commented, “It seems hard, very hard at the moment Kusha…but remember, share without fear, scream, shout, stay still, run, sob, laugh… and throw away the map, just wander…freely! Cause grief stays, but it changes…it definitely changes and you come out as a more compassionate, loving, and caring soul!” Pulkit too had separated from his wife Shweta Rohira in 2015.

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Zorawar and Kusha who married in 2017, announced their mutual decision to part ways on June 26 this year.